God in the Winter

That which was from the beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen with our eyes, which we have looked upon, and our hands have handled, of the Word of life; I John 1:1

I have lived more than 23,000 days on this earth, and have never found a single fact of science or history that contradicts the Bible.  I have pursued truth; (it is who I am by nature) and I have pursued God.  John’s first epistle reveals God’s truth in glorious light—God is light, and in Him is no darkness at all!  It is delightful to see God’s light and to know deeply that it is good and right to apply to all of life.

But for those who stop their search for God after the discovery of His light in all its glory fall far short of the revelation John speaks about.  The same God whom John declared is light, is the same God whom John declared is love (I John 4:8).  God’s truth is available and plain for all to see.  The longer I live life, the more clearly I see His immutable principles prevail no matter who or what the subject of His Providence is.

I wonder how different life would be if Christians gave the same energy to discovering that “God is love” as they have given to explaining God’s light of truth.  Could I speak from the heart and tell you what I have heard, what I have seen with my eyes, what my hands have handled?  Could I capture the mystical epiphanies that are scattered throughout my story that have little to do with me, and everything to do with Him?  In these days of winter, it is an early dark morning, coffee alone, dry skin, a shiver of cold, pushing back vague thoughts of aging.  These are facts.  They are truth.  I have mistakenly thought they dim the light of God, but they do not dim the light at all.  They dim the love.  And I must find the One who comes to me and fills me with eternity, transcends the facts of life and the illusion of death, so that I might say with John, I have heard, I have seen, I have handled; I am overshadowed by the Almighty, and I am loved.

The Psalmist gave testimony to the same experience—

“Mercy and truth are met together; righteousness and peace have kissed each other.”  Psalms 85:10  

It is the personal and profound experience of the mercy of God that assures me I will never be alone—surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life!  It is a Presence that settles on me and in me, and in that moment, I let go of my struggle.  Though I am commanded to “strive to enter in at the strait gate,” (Luke 13:24) the war for truth and righteousness is utterly exhausting until “mercy and truth are met together, and righteousness and peace have kissed each other.”

I have experienced the One who is Light.  He is the One who is Love.  In the dark of winter, I hear Him saying, rest a while.  There is joy in the morning, and He loves to give good gifts to His children.  Today I will appreciate the light of God that shines in my heart, and I will rest with the dogged determination that truth often elicits inside me, to embrace the mercy and peace of the Holy Spirit, who invites me to see, and to hear, and to understand in an unseen realm that fulfills the longings of winter.

About thegriefexperience

I have recently published a book for grieving people called Comfort and Joy available at my website, thegriefexperience.com. I received my Doctor of Education degree from the University of Louisville, and also hold a Master of Science degree and a Physician Assistant degree. I lived as a short term missionary in Swaziland, South Africa, prior to my life as a grief coach and author. My story is about the fact that I am an expert in grief, learning through the goodness of God to navigate a life of sudden turns and repeated trauma that brought grief and loss. I have learned about grief as an unwilling student in a life shaken by sudden death, suicide, and devastating illness. I have been widowed three times, and have raised five children in the midst of earthquake life changes. I have counseled, written and taught classes on The Grief Experience because it is what I have learned well. No amount of education or theory prepares you for multiple experiences of death and loss. But I have found healing in Jesus Christ who is the only One who has conquered death. What He has done for me, He will do for you. Visit my blog at TheGriefExperience.Wordpress.com.
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